Divining With Fear
A woman with a backpack came to teach me in a dream. We were in a crowded lobby, and I preferred a private room. She said, “No, I have to teach you right here.” [the urgency of the times we’re in] She opened her backpack and took out a paper heart, a valentine drawn with crayon and love. [warmth started filling my body, softening my mind, opening my heart, I was still in the dream]
The heart said: Know what you really want.
With those words, all my cells started vibrating, expanding, dividing, increasing, like my consciousness had just grown twice as big. [haha, for a moment at least] I knew she’d given me a message not just for me, but for you.
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When you’re afraid, know what you want. I mean, I know you want to accomplish your “goal” and most of us definitely want the fear to just disappear so we can go on living in a less-anxious state.
But the dream said know what you REALLY want. And what most of us REALLY want is some kind of feeling. And it’s a solid feeling, an important feeling, a feeling we can carry around with us in our backpacks and be like, “Yep, I got this crazy mission of life and it’s heavy but it’s worth it.”
Like instead of pretending that what you want is rippling six pack abs or mega six figure income, and being afraid you’ll never get it and the painful process it will take, what you REALLY want is a stable core of values and wisdom that withstands the gut punch of life. A vision for money, matter and all your material needs that is utterly, utterly, safe, sustainable and protected.
It’s less scary when you know what you really are wanting.
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Understanding the way fear works is like learning to read leaves in the tea cup, integrate a dream or watch the storm come down from the mountain. There’s a pattern and a flow, the rhythm of nature. There’s an ancient, intuitive, step-by-step process. There are physical sensations from torturous to ecstatic and everything in between that keeps you connected to the joys of having your one, fragile human body.
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Divining with fear is best practiced together. That way you know you’re not crazy or making sh*t up. Togetherness is accountability to the people you love and the intentions you’ve set. Togetherness embeds a powerful memory of safety, so that one day, when you are finally, truly alone, you have the strength to take the next brave step.